January 2010
121 posts
right about now, i’d say life is GREAT. today i had a tennis match, well three, but this one, this one was nice. i had the partner i wanted and i challenged these two really cool guys. they’re their team’s first and third rank, so yeah, it was pretty difficult.. but that’s why i loved it so much. one was an old friend, jonah, and the other.. well the other was tyler and i...
December 2009
62 posts
the worse part is i don't know that something's...
just a little more. please, just a little more.
is this sickness ever going away?!?
i’ve been lying here for the past how long, trying to fall asleep. i don’t like this feeling. i’m thinking about actually taking a break and resting now. it does not feel good at all. i just want it to go away already. please, i’m begging, take it away. i don’t know when the last time i wasn’t sick was. i hope it’s nothing i should be worried about.
i am not pleased with myself
curiosity pushes me to look, but when i do i feel sick in the stomach, i get light headed, i feel an instant drop in my body. i don’t know why it happens, it just does. i don’t know what’s wrong with me. maybe i’m sick? not feeling well? a little under the weather still? i doubt it. i tried not looking before and it just lead to not caring. i tried not caring and it lead to...
i wonder where life takes me next
i hope things stay the same, yet change. i hope to continue down this path with a little twist. it’s it’s good but not great. i could use a slight turn but not a 180. i’m really liking it now, but it could still be better.
oh the things he can do for you
thanks god <3 .. and i’m sorry
im starting to feel light headed and i dont think...
i just had the best dream ever
and you were there
L.O.L
ok well today i went out, and i seen this old filipino lady. for some reason she tried having a convo with me.. for like half an hour O_o how odd. but anyway she’s talking, and talking, and I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT SHE’S SAYING. so i just nod my head and say yeah, oh wow, thats nice, yes, mhm. and well i guess she thought i really understood. so then finally when she’s about to leave,...
she made it all worth it :D thank you. i love that i meant people like these and come very close to them. i guess i just end up being in the right spot at the right time.
she seems vaguely familiar..
lol cruch’n on a girl i don’t even know ;P
how do i have this much followers?
more than half of you don’t even know me. my blogs aren’t even interesting. not saying that you shouldn’t follow me but why don’t you all post a blog saying why you do follow me? i’ve always wondered what you would have to say. i’d say i’m a pretty weird dude don’t you agree? ;)
living life and loving every second of it
this is going to be the best christmas ever!
but i need to finish shopping :(
i was in bed all day! i wanted to do so much but i guess im just getting sick again. sorry to those of you who texted me, i was OUT. the only TWO times i got out of bed were to eat breakfast and get ready for bed. mom brought me dinner in bed :D thanks. i feel happy. being sick isn’t that bad if you have the right people around you :)
everything worked out for the best. he is perfect, i’m not a mistake. i was put on this earth for a reason, she tells me so, he tells me so, everyone tells me so. so i think i’ll believe them. i may have done wrong in my past and i probably will continue to do wrong, but no one is perfect. he shows us who we should want to be like, but we never will really get there. we can get as...
in the past we’ve fought a lot. but in the past i’ve always had no doubts about our friendship. i never doubted that we would make up, i never doubted that our friendship would never be broken, but now.. now i’m not so sure. i feel almost certain we will never be friends again. i don’t know what it is but i just feel that i cant be your friend anymore. it saddens me to...
what do you mean, hypocrite?!? i let everything go. you left me and broke my heart, i didn’t say anything just i hope for the best. im not saying anything about it anymore, i dont think about it anymore, i forgot and forgave everything you did to me. what more could you ask?!? i left, i dont talk to you, i dont look at you, i dont do anything having to do with you. i want you to understand...
oh my goodness! im sick of your shit! why don’t you just leave me alone?!? you don’t care about me, so why do you keep saying crap?!?. just give up already! you want me gone, im gone! just fuck me already! you don’t need to waste anymore of your time with me, you don’t need to care about me anymore, you don’t need to do anything having to do with me! so just fucking...
i’m super pissed at you. i don’t know why, i just am. but even though, i still haven’t gone to menchies, i still haven’t seen our movie, i’m still waiting on you. i don’t know why i do this, i don’t know why i’d want to, i just do. maybe i shouldn’t. if i do i’d probably end up never going there, i’ll end up never watching it…...
tonight, i broke a promise. i let it take me over, i let it run me, i gave in. i’m not happy with myself, not even close. why do i do this to myself? i know it hurts, i know it’s wrong, i know the consequences. do i do this to fit in with the rest of you? am i just trying to fit in? you hurt me, so maybe if i hurt me too i’ll be excepted. is this why i truly do it? or is it cause...
damn it! just fuckn take me away already
and then i realized i was fooling myself
i wash behind my ears.
i always get all worked up and prepare myself for the worse. but not always does the worse come. so i end up sitting here without any feelings toward it. i ran the worse scenarios through my head over and over again until i felt it was bearable. in a way, i’m glad it wasn’t as bad as i thought it would be but i’m also worried if i can stay strong and keep my head up through the...
lol she thought it was me and wrote such a nice, heartfelt letter, but it wasn’t. haha it was my friend. he was probably wondering what was going on. LOL times like these… XP
